Bikram, boiled potatoes and bling

Today I was meant to get up at 7.30am and head off to my first ever Bikram yoga class, where you do yoga in a boiling hot room. No ordinary yoga for me. Oh no. As I've said before, I'm living a life less ordinary now! Anyway, that didn't materialise because I had one of the worst night's sleep ever last night. It was so bad that I ended up taking a sleeping tablet at 4am because it just wasn't happening. So my plan is to go on my hot date tomorrow morning instead. Today is all about swimming in the open-air pool in the sunshine. Oh yes.

I feel like I've turned a bit of a corner since Laura was here, in that I want to start doing some more things to give me pleasure. Pleasure isn't necessarily going to come knocking on my door - I have to hunt it down. So things like Bikram and outdoor swimming are little things for me to do to give me a bit of pleasure in my life. I'm fortunate to have some time to myself at the minute to do those kind of things. And it's trying to be summer out there. So I'm going to try and make the most of it.

This week is also the final countdown to the Three Peaks Challenge. I'm meant to be eating 70% carbs this week, but considering that I normally just rustle something up with what I can find in the cupboards, that requires a bit more effort. So yesterday, I actually boiled a couple of potatoes for my tea. Yay. Small steps but hopefully they are going in the right direction.

And bling.... I've moved my engagement ring over to my right hand for now. It's not necessarily a permanent fixture. Time will tell. But I just found that wearing a wedding and engagement ring together sends out such a clear message that you're obviously married. And that's to both women and men. There's no question about it. That can lead to assumptions and questions. Whether I wear either or both of my rings or not, isn't going to bring T back. If only it would. I will always be married to T. I will always love T. I will never forget T. But I need to realise that my rings, while they did represent our love for each other, are just material things whose presence or otherwise won't change a single thing about that love.