Socialising solo

Tomorrow I'm off to a wedding. My first since T died. My first without T. And the wedding is the same family as the wedding we were at on the Saturday before T died. So same guests and all that malarky. Looks like it'll even be the same bloody weather. Fortunately my family will be there, so although I'll be solo in one respect, I won't in another. Still the only one without their partner there though. I don't imagine it will be an easy day for me. But it's not about me. It's about the bride and groom and that's why I'm going. As well as painting my nails a fashionable shade of black, I'll also be painting a smile onto my face. Not a black smile but a happy smile. I have to grin and bear it. What else is there to do?